A.Fox

Jason sucks, I moved back to Michigan, I live in Lansing. I got a job at biggby on Ottawa for the time being. Don't know what's going on with my tattoo apprenticeship. Oh and I live with Matt again... SUPRISE!

alli think about is nebraska and all the new people ill meet.
ha i mean i dont wanna hang out with anyone, i think when jason buys our house im going to put a garden in the backyard and grow my own veggies. hopefully no nados tear it up. It's like 60 here today I love it.

blonde hair forever!!!
I'm moving to FUCKING NEBRASKA FOR MY BOYFRIEND WHO I HAVEN'T TOLD ANY OF YOU ABOUT!!!

Hey, do any of my livejournal friends live near Omaha NE because I'm moving there in like a month and won't have any ladies to hang out with that I know of. So yeahhhh.

VICTORIA BECKHAM WATCH OUT.

I am such a bitch and I treat everyone in my life like shit. I see the lives of people I don't know and wonder how the fuck their so social. I always make plans with people then cancel them because when it comes down to the hour I'm supposed to hang out with them I'd rather be sitting in my living room watching some shitty sitcom alone. I really don't like being around people. I don't know how to talk to people. I haven't been myself at all lately and I need to work on it, and by lately I mean the last like three years of my life. I miss Micah and I talked to him yesterday. I wouldn't say I love him but I still care about him so much for never seeing him, for the last year and a half. There's so many people I used to be so close to and he is one of the only people I can honestly say that I miss..ahh and Colin!


Arrrghhh so depressing. I know things can never go back to the way they were when I was fifteen but I can dream can't I?

It's so unreal when you realize your boyfriend wants to break up because you don't want to wear makeup or shave anymore.

Matt and I got back together, I felt like the time was finally right.

anyways here's pictures from his 21st birthday
( mmm )

on a more sour note that means things with fox are sour. I told him I didn't want to be the way we were several times before and it never stuck until now. he didn't take it very well which is expected but he told me we could still be friends after a while. i've actually cried about it a few times but I know that I need to just do what makes me happy.

Livejournal, this is what I look like lately.

Got more work done.
Still nothing really interesting in my life to update about.

This is your head on a canvas looking my way.


Had another session on my chest two weeks ago or so.
More shading to do and color on the roses.
II by cursed is my favorite album right now.


Also Joe is coming over this weekend. It's causing a lot of unnecessary drama in my life. I'm not worried about it. Also no I'm not Fox's girlfriend right now.

Goth4lyfe.





LOL.
I miss joe ellis so much.


He is one of the only guys I can talk to about anything and everything.
Hate hate hate hate europe and canada right now.
Fox comes home monday day and I just found out im scheduled until 10 that night wtf, usually I have mondays off. Whatever though tomorrow i'm stoked to see sarah and trip all day.

Joe just told me that European kfcs don't have mashed potatoes and there's no tacos anywhere.
So anyone from Europe, do you know what the fuck youre missing out on?

I told myself not to get involved with anyone again but it seems that I never follow my word. We're not together but I just want him to come home from tour to hold me for everrrrr. I don't care how cheesy or gay it sounds, you should hear the shit he says about me. I finally told Matt there wasn't a chance in us getting back together and I wasn't going to risk my happiness again at the chance of him being nice to me. It doesn't matter, shit went stale so long ago.

I was supposed to have another meeting for Douglas J (Aveda) this morning, but I guess Obama is speaking downtown, so I had to reschedule. Really annoying considering I went to sleep at 2:00am when I got out of work and now it's 9:30am, I have to go back and work 6-2a. FML.

Last night I actually went out to Fox's we watched four movies in a row, night of the living dead, return of the night of the living dead 2, 28 weeks later, and superbad... and I kept falling asleep every ten minutes, then we walked through the ghetto and there were a bunch of black girls screaming 'I DUN GIV A FUX' and we were both trying not to laugh. He got me two rip its and those fucking little cherry pie things from this convenient store that only carried two different kinds of cigarettes, newports and malboro lights and could make you chicken tenders. Weird I know. Anyway got my second wind, watched two more movies then left. It was like six before I got home and I woke up at 10:30, I feel like such shit from it. Shit was awesome though. Tonight I don't have plans but have to work from 2 -10 which sucks something fierce if i get out early im thinking about going to beardcore even though I shouldn't spend money because fox is tattooing me in less than a month. fuck being broke, i wanna win the lotto.

Just to let you know, I'm not doing this again. Matt can eat shit and get suicide bombed. Literally the most worthless person i've ever met. Who thrives off making people miserable because he can't stand seeing anyone happy if he can't. I'm so happy to be single in other words. I love him but I also want every waking moment he spends in extreme pain for making me feel this way. Whatever, now it's time to get over him. It might take a while but I'll be able to do it, just like every other relationship I've had in my life. Also I just want to say "fuck you mom" for telling me I was just like you and weak, told me I was going to get married to him and my life was going to be a living hell because i'm too ignorant to realize what i'm going through'. I know I deserve better, and I'll get treated that way when I find someone who loves everything about me.

End rant.

All I want to do is work, I'm addicted to making money.

Ugh why am I doing this again.

Lol at people calling me fat on the internet for being 130.
I'm seriously hysterical about it, laughing wise.
Shits been so much better now that I live at home.
I think i'm going to get breast implants, haha.

ahh, fucked over again.
love life to the fullest extent.
trying to cope with this and
you all know the best way to get over someone
is to hang out with someone else.

so seriously if you think i'm worth listening to
or hanging out with or we have similar interests, lets chill.